Happy

i am in a majorly better mood, thank god and now my mood is increasing more cause josh is talking to me now and halloween is a week away. i cant wait and i'm going to be a renaissance vampire! i have this amazingly pretty dress that i got from walmart. it is perfect! this is probably my best costume yet, so yeah can't wait...

sapphire ;)

Depression

i've started on a road that i will be able to leave eventually, but for now i'm going to walk the halls of my school rather zombie-like. the source of my depression? lycan's moved on and is now with someone else. he's broken my heart and stomped on it with boots and left me hurt and damaged. i will recover from this, but as i sad it'll take a while to do so.

sapphire :'(

Cursed

i am seriously beginning to wonder if i am cursed. anything that i plan or want always goes wrong in some way. always.

fourth of july: i got in trouble for accidentally getting a time wrong...
july 7: had an amazing time at lycan's until i forgot to call my dad...
this whole summer: everytime i saw lycan i screwed up something...
labor day weekend: i went to a party at lycan's and then a day after we got into a major fight and had the worst week ever...
september 23: wanted to hang out with just lycan, but libby had to join us...
my birthday: went to get my permit and my mom forgets my social security card...
homecoming: had an amazing night with lycan, but got into a lot of shit for dancing with him...
september 30: lycan tells me he wants to date me, my mom forbids me from having anything to do with him...
october 3: the previous sunday i met a guy that i liked... he asks me out on wat would have been my first date and then stands me up...
this weekend: i was hoping on seeing lycan, but he was working all weekend... i got his number unblocked from my phone and now he has yet to answer any of my texts

i am obviously cursed or have unbelieveably bad luck