Happy :)

i is very happy right now. i can talk better, lycan just left about an hour ago and school starts in less than a week. yay! i had so much fun with lycan mostly we just hung out down at the park. he wanted to kiss me reall bad and i wanted to kiss him real bad (but i didnt cause i is sick and dont want him sick even tho he said not to worry about it) so we figured out a way that both of us would be satisfied (well as best we could get at the moment). i wonder if he realizes that when i'm all better i'm going to tackle and just start making out with him lol. hopefully that's soon. now onto school. why am i happy about schol u may ask. well it's a rather simple answer. i'll get to see all my friends i didnt see over the summer and i'll get to see lycan everyday. so i will be rather happy. dang it! i forgot to talk to him about maybe hanging out after school on monday >:( i hate when i forget stuff. oh well. hmmmm... i think that's all i have to say. well for right now that is of course i have more to say, but we'll save that for another day.

Byes!

Sapphire ;)

ARRRRRRRRGH!

ARRRRRRGH! i cant believe this! i am stuck being sick for wat could be three more weeks, school starts in a week, i cant see lycan cause he's so busy with other things and such and it's just all so freaking frustrating! i can hardly swallow or talk cause my of throat! wat am i gonna do if it doesnt go away before school starts!?! ARRRG! and i was really hoping to see lycan again before school starts (hell i've been wanting to do that for weeks) but he's always busy doing something else. god! this sucks!

So i got kinda mad the first time i went onto this mortal instruments site cause they screwed up so much. i'm reading it and i'm like "wrong... wrong... so wrong!" it pissed me off. so now i am making my own site for the amazing books by cassandra clare. i dont have much of it done yet, but it's getting there. the address is: sites.google.com/site/alicanteidris so yep! check it out plz.

BYES!

Sapphire

i'm only posting so that lycan will stop nagging me. nothing much has really happened. the full moon was last night. i'm still waiting to know if wat we tried last month worked. i really hope it did. i think it did, but i'm i'm not sure. hmmm... i keep dreaming about school and in every dream i have my locker is broken. weird. ummmm... i dont know wat else to say. (see this is why i havent posted for a little bit!) i hope to go shopping tonight, but it porbably isnt going to happen. i've been wanting to all week and my dad keeps telling me we'll do it tomorrow, but tomorrow obviously hasnt come yet. *sigh* oh well. i hope i get to see lycan either tomorrow or saturday. i havent seen him since last tuesday and a lot has gone on since then (not discussing it on here) so i have to see him. ummm... that's all.

Bye!

Sapphire

P.S.

you better be happy now, lycan. XP

puppies and confusion: an odd combination

random thought, but i hope that i get new phone soon cause this is wat i have to do to get it to charge ->

and this is the puppy!

he is sooooooooo cute! his name is chase and i predict that he will have an identity crisis when he is older cause every one keeps calling him a she. *sigh* oh well.

now onto more news...

i am very confused. why? cause of lycan. one moment he seems like he wants to kiss me and stuff and then he doesnt and then he does and it's just very confusing. i dont know wat to do anymore. he said that he doesnt want to date me cause if it goes wrong then it could ruin our friendship and he doesnt want to lose me as a friend. i can understand that, but wat if it could go rite? if we dont try then we'll never know. and i know i wouldnt do anything to screw up any relationship with him, but i'm not sure if he completely believes me on that. and i wish he would cause if u look at my last boyfriend, me and him are still good friends and we still hang out and it's like we never even dated. i wish he would look at that and believe that i wont let anything happen between us. if we do end up dating i wouldnt let that screw up our friendship if we broke up. he will always be my best friend, but i want him to be more than that cause to me it would make things better. i want to date him so bad and i hope that he does read this and it convinces him that i WONT let anything go wrong... but of course i'm always sending up "red flags" that he doesnt like. i figure that after everything that bitch put him through he's real gun-shy. i get that. i just wish that he would see that i would NEVER lie to him, but i dont think he believes me when i say that. i hope that i can get around wat she did to him and get somewhere where he will believe that i wont let a break up ruin our friendship if we date cause it would absolutely tear me apart.

i think i'm finished with that.

i think that's all i have to say right now, i might post later about drill, but i dont know yet. and by the way, lycan is back so that's good.

bye!

Sapphire